Monthly Goals

I’m putting the monthly goals to bed.  I made it 4 months posting monthly goals but in recent months they have just kinda been there and not really a motivator for me.

I suppose I also ran out of goals.  Ha!

My goals are pretty set and don’t change too much from month to month so the exercise of trying to come up with new, fresh ideas started to become stale.  Moving forward, my goals are to lose the 35 pounds I have left to lose and complete C25k with the ultimate goal of completing a half marathon.  That’s enough on my plate, so to speak.

You might have noticed that the gratitude journal went bye bye as well.  I’ve been feeling kinda bitchy and ungrateful lately.  There has just been so much going on at my house and with work that I’m having a hard time staying positive.  My hope is that I can let go of some of the harbored anger that I have toward people and situations.  I need to find some sort of meditative process that is going to work for me.  I’m open to suggestions!

Things I’m working on to change my mental state:

  • Trying to find some freelance work online so I can quit my job.  I absolutely HATE my hours and I have no challenge whatsoever.  I’m feeling down graded.  Ugh.
  • I NEED to journal.  I’m thinking that I need to write down all my negative thoughts when I have them so I can really squash them.  Right now I’m just so mad at everything and it’s wearing me down.  I may need a journal this size…

  • Spend more time with friends and family.  This is really hindered by my current work situation.  I feel completely isolated. My husband and kids are at work and school and by the time they get home I leave.  I’m working weekends.  I work alone all night.  I just can’t stand my current situation and it’s up to me to change it!

*Sigh

Monday Check In

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Look at all the crap I strap on for a run. I don’t even think elite runners do that! Ha!

Quick check in before I head out to start week 4 of C25k (yes…I changed the days again, I can’t seem to get my behind out the door on Sat/Sun when the family is around. Ugh!). I’m absolutely terrified to start this week. The run intervals are sooooo long. It doesn’t seem right!!

I hope I make it? Hahaha.

Today’s measurements:
Weight: 186.4 (-0.6)
Bust: 39 (+2.5…I must have measured wrong on day one?)
Waist: 36.5 (-.5)
Hips: 41.75 (-.25)
Thighs: L-22.5 R-22.75 (-.5 & +1.75)
Arms: L-12.5 R-12.25 (-.5 & +.25)

Some of those measurements are weird but I’m thinking I probably messed something up then I measured on the first day…even though I measured several times. I also stood to measure today so maybe the differences come from there as well?!

I’m pretty ok with that outcome. I have to say that I’ve been eating a lot of chocolate lately and I thought for sure that I would be up 5 pounds today. I was pleasantly surprised that I had a loss, however small.

My goal for this week is to track all of my food, complete C25k week 4 on Mon/Wed/Fri, and keep drinking lots of water. I also want to add in some cross training on Tue/Thurs. Maybe a workout video or just some squats/lunges/etc.

Let’s make it a good week!! 🙂

Check In Monday

Hi…

It’s Miss Indecisive.

I’ve had some really busy days in the last week.  I’m working more than I want to be (everyone else is apparently out of hours so guess who gets to work for them) and I’ve been simultaneously trying to get my shit together.  We also have family staying with us so the house is full (not to my enjoyment) and there has been nothing but junk food and other crap traveling through the house on a steady basis.  It’s enough to make you scream!

My one saving grace has been getting out of the house for my wogs.  Last week I was able to get out once and I started week 3 of C25K.

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I discovered that the sports park is really nice and flat and that there is a semi good path to jog on.  I even have an option of dirt or pavement which was super exciting.  Except for the fact that the dirt path had some areas that were over watered by the city and were more swamp like than dirt like.  I enjoyed my run at the park nevertheless.  There are a lot of joggers over there and pretty much every single one gave a wave or a “Good Morning”.  I thought that was really amazing considering that most of the time people are so self involved.  Sorry…you know it’s true!  I’m going to use the sports park until I get bored of it.  I honestly don’t think I would have been able to complete the C25K workout as scheduled if I had done it in my hilly neighborhood.  I know hills are good to train on, but come on!  I don’t think they are good to train on if you can barely run in the first place?

Any who, before I knew it the week was over and there was only one work out done.  Woomp Woomp!  I’m not sure what happened there.  I just got really busy with all of the other stuff I had to get done during the week.  Appointments, grocery shopping, kids carpool, cleaning the house, etc. etc.  What can I say, the week just got away from me and I chose not to make time for myself.  I don’t want to fall back into my old habits.  I was doing well putting myself first for once.  It is what it is!

Seeing that it’s Monday today it’s a perfect time to revisit what I need to do this week.  I busted out my little weight loss folder today and discovered that I have not kept track of my measurements or weigh ins at all.  It’s just been really inconsistent and all over the place with the weigh ins. Oops!  I’m pulling out the weight loss tracking sheets and putting them next to my bed. That way they will be visible when I get up in the morning.  I’ve also decided that Monday is going to be official weigh in day for me and I’m only tracking it on my paper journal and here in a blog post (that was the other problem…too many places to update). Put that on the calendar!  We’ll see how it goes.

C25K workouts will continue to be Tuesday, Thursday and Saturdays.  One mistake I made last week is that I let others get in my way.  For example, my daughter asked me one day to wait for her so she could go with me after school, long story short, it didn’t go down as planned.  I’ve learned that I’m better at morning workouts.  Not because I’m a morning person but because that way I can get it done and over with and have less time to make excuses all day.

Any who, today’s stats:

  • Weight: 187 (up by about 2 lbs)
  • Bust: 36.5
  • Waist: 37
  • Hips: 42
  • Thigh: L-23 R-21 (WTF?)
  • Arms: L-13 R-12 (again…WTF?)

 

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I also got my Nuun Energy sampler pack.  I’ve tried the Wild Berry and Cherry Limeade so far.  They are both decent but I don’t know if I notice much of an energy surge after I drink them.  I suppose I feel a little more alert but over all it doesn’t seem like much.  We’ll see how I perform during a wog while drinking them since they are meant to be an electrolyte and energy boost for exercise.  The tablets are full of B vitamins and caffeine.  They don’t have very many carbohydrates at all and there is no sugar. That’s pretty much what drew me to them…the no carbs/no sugar aspect.  Check out the details here!

So that’s about it for me.  I’m going to be working hard on getting my ass back on track.  I’m going to watch what I eat with no official “diet” to speak of but trying to keep it as healthy as possible most of the time.  Move my behind like I said I would so I don’t fall off the training wagon.  I know that completing C25K is a must!  If I can’t get this done and have enough discipline for it then I will never be able to complete the half marathon training as planned.  It’s just a fact!

Let’s do it!

March Madness

March is just about over and I have to say that I have not stuck to my goals. at. all!

I have not tracked regularily.  I have not eaten the amount of fruits and veggies that I should be eating.  I certainly have not reached my weekly exercise calories.  And the gratitude journal, yea, about that…

My March goals are not being accomplished.  That’s one thing I can say for sure!

My weight is hanging in there and I’m teetering about a pound up and then a pound back down.  So in general I think my eating is decent even if I haven’t been tracking consistently.  I have noticed that things have gotten a little more flabby though which is not cool and I know it’s related to not working out for close to 2 weeks now.  You can definitely lose weight without working out but your body isn’t going to look the same as when you add exercise to the mix.  Exercise tones and refines everything, so it’s definitely necessary.  I completely realize that!

I stopped doing Turbo Fire a couple of weeks back because of the medications my doctor put me on.  One side effect could be “tendon rupture” and that scared the crap out of me.  Turbo Fire is rough and demanding without possible side effects so I decided to take the easy (safe) way out.  I finally finished the medicine this week so I’m going to get back to the workouts soon.  I’ll probably wait a few more days until I stop feeling sore (yes, I haven’t exercised and I still feel sore…part of the damn medicine effects).  I’m really bummed because I had a great rhythm going with the workouts.  It’s going to be hard to get myself back into the mind set and then wrangling up the will power to get it done.  *Sigh.

Since my March goals have kind of fallen to the side because of several factors, I’m just going to try to finish out the month by sticking to the basics (I’ve been doing REALLY bad with this stuff):

  • Eat dinner at a decent time.  I’ve been eating after work which ends up being 10pm.  I probably should do breakfast and lunch (which I skip a lot of the time) at regular times as well.  I’ve been all over the place.  So come to think of it, I’ve probably stayed around the same weight because I’m not eating meals at all and then eating smaller amounts when I do.  No wonder I feel like crap.  Awesome!
  • Pick up the water intake again.  I’ve let that fall behind as well.
  • Sleep!!!  I don’t do much of that at all and I’m so fucking tired.
  • Track my meals/snacks!
  • Try to relax!  Stress is consuming me.

Well…that’s it.  March is a wash for me, apparently.  I can’t go back and “fix” anything so my goal is just to move forward and make some small changes to the way I do things.  I don’t really feel bad about March, I’m giving myself a pass.  As I mentioned in February, I’ve just had a lot of stuff going on and it happened to carry over to March.  Just keep swimming, right?

February Goal Wrap Up and March Goals (also WI results)

I’m not even kidding when I say I have had the worst month of February EVAH!  Seriously.  I can’t even begin to tell you how much the last month has sucked.

I’m so stressed I can barely breathe.  I don’t eat.  I don’t sleep.  I barely have the will to get up in the morning but somehow I continue to live and move about.  I don’t necessarily want to, but I do it because there is no other choice.

I don’t even honestly know what my goals were for the last month.  I had to look back on the post to see what promises I made to myself and here is the outcome:

  • Track everything I eat/No fast food
  • Turbo Fire as scheduled
  • Work through PUSH

Considering that I have had the month from hell it’s really surprising to me that I actually completed most of the goals I had above. Imagine that!!!!  I’m actually a bit shocked myself.  I can’t say that I consciously completed the tasks but in one way or another I got it done.  I ate out 3 times that I can remember and the restaurants didn’t have a drive through so I guess that’s win?  I tracked most everything and most of the time.  I know I missed some stuff here and there but I did track pretty regularily.  I mentioned it before but I’m now on My Fitness Pal instead of Weight Watchers.  Saving those Benjamins!!  Or not…I don’t think I’ve even know what a hundred dollar bill looks like in real life.  Ha!  Moving on….

I’ve been doing TF on a regular basis.  I took a few days off last week because I was having problems with every body part and organ I house and therefore decided I was just going to take a break for a bit.  I got back to it today.  Didn’t want to but ended up burning 400 calories even though I barely tried and took it fairly easy.  I’m disappointed by that because I really am a perfectionist but I guess it is what it is.

I’m nearly done with PUSH.  Loved the program and I learned several new things while going through it.  If you implement the program I can see it getting you to your goals whatever they might be.  That said, I worked through the program and did the assignments but I can’t say that I have implemented or stuck to plan.  Maybe another time, right now I’m just thoroughly defeated and I can’t imagine adding anything to my plate at this time.  Unless it’s an In n Out cheeseburger.  That I could add to my plate!

So there we are.  That’s February in a nut shell!  And what do I have to show for it you ask?  Well….here are my results for February:

  • Current Weight: 185.6 (Yes I’m listing it because I just don’t give a shit anymore)
  • Loss: Around 5 pounds.  I say “around” because I don’t have any idea what my weight was at the beginning of February (and the info is hostage on WW) so I can’t give an accurate measure for the month of February.  I’ve been so all over the place with tracking days and locations that I don’t even know anymore.  I do know that I have hit the lowest weight in about 7-8 years with that number.  Yay! *eyeroll*  Somehow that’s not impressing me.

I won’t officially do any progress pics or measurements until the end of this week so that will be a separate post.  I’ve definitely lost inches though and I know that because pants I haven’t fit comfortably in forever seem to be big.  We’ll see!

Now comes the most difficult part for me.  Figuring out my goals for the month of March.  I have a lot of personal/life goals at this point such as “try to survive this hell you are living” so it makes it difficult to focus on health but I decided never to give up so I’m going to throw some shit up here because I have to.  Boom!

Goals for March 2014 (all previous goals continued plus):

  • More fruits and veggies and keep up the water intake!!
  • Minimum of 2,400 calories burned a week via exercise.
  • Keep a daily journal listing what I’m thankful for on that particular day.

Previous goal reminder for myself:  track, no fast food, TF, finish PUSH.

And that’s it!

Moving Right Along

I posted my stats and before pictures to document any progress I might have during Turbo Fire.  Shield your eyes if you happen to look back at it.  You have been warned!  😉

I wanted to check in today because I can officially say that I’m back.  I mentioned that I was struggling a bit a post or two ago and just the act of doing that seemed to have switched something back on in my head.  I’ve been tracking and working on my fitness.  I would say those two things are a win all on their own.  I’m also feeling good about my blogging and I’m completely enraptured with PUSH. You should really check out the PUSH program…it’s pretty freakin’ awesome…and it’s free.  Win/Win situation!

The items I still need to work on a bit are as follows (and I post these things here because it seems to help me move in the right direction!):

  1. Drink more water
  2. Get more sleep
  3. Add more fruits and veggies to my meals

That’s it for now.

Ending January and New Goals

Oh wow.  It’s the 5th of February and I’ve been meaning to get this update/new goals post up here so that I can continue to move along the path.

Ok, here are my January goal reminders:

  • track everyday
  • complete 30 day shred
  • spending freeze

I did really well on 2 out of 3 goals.  My tracking was spot on, for the most part.  For the month of January I only missed tracking a few meals and some night time snacking.  I consider that a win!  The 30 Day Shred started and ended soon after.  I think I got 10 or 14 days into it (can’t remember) and I quit.  I’ve decided that Jillian is just too damn annoying.  I tried turning the volume down on the video but I still couldn’t handle her.  Ugh!  Any who, I quit 30DS and moved on to Turbo Fire.  I like Chalene a lot more than Jillian.  That’s for sure.  (See my February goals below for update on TF).  The spending freeze went really good as well.  I managed to spend only $25 for the whole month on “extra’s”.  Then I was on my last day of the month and ended up buying makeup.  Oops!  I did make it almost the entire month though so I’ll consider it a goal reached!

Things I’ve learned during the month of January:  I can live without spending money on stuff every other day.  I’m pretty anal about my workouts.  I might lack motivation with some of my workouts (see below).  Tracking is definitely the key to success.

January Results:

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I’m down 4 pounds since the start of WW.  I know that isn’t stellar or impressive for most, but I’m ok with it.  I have to be!  I told myself when I started WW that I would take my time and do it right for the last time.  It seems like I had a loss every other week and the weeks opposite I would gain.  I hope that isn’t an indication that I will gain next week?  That would suck because I’m currently a pound away from my lowest weight in a long time.  I better get my ass in gear!  I love the WW website because you can really analyze what you were doing any given week and what your results were.  I noticed that on weeks with a gain I didn’t workout as much and I skipped tracking a couple of meals.  Soooo….I know where I need to make improvements.  Moving on!  PS:  New weight tracking day is Saturday.  Yay!  😉

Any who…

I’m on to my next item.  FEBRUARY GOALS!

February happens to be my birth month.  I’m turning 37 in a few days.  A few years back (2 to be exact) I told myself that I would reach my final goals that year.  Here we are 2 years later and I’m still not where I want to be.  I have made several adjustments though and I think that my mind set is different now.

For the past few days I’ve been slacking big time but I’ve always had it in the back of my mind that I shouldn’t throw everything away.  I’m realizing that it doesn’t have to be all of nothing.  I can still make good choices most of the time even if I have some not so good choices mixed in with that.  For the start of February I’m going to admit that I haven’t tracked as well as I did in January.  I kinda let the workouts slip to the side too.  I haven’t been “feeling” it.  I sit here today writing this knowing damn well that this better be my wake up call.  If I don’t come back to realizing my goals, it’s going to go to shit.  Seriously.  So here are my goals…

  • Track everything I eat/No Fast Food:  I decided to carry the tracking thing over to February because it is just a necessary evil.  If I ignore it, it still happened, might as well own up to it.  I also decided to skip fast food this month.  I somehow did this automatically in January which is a big deal.  I’m a fast food junkie…probably the reason I’m 30 pounds overweight!  There were a couple of days were we got fast food as a family because we were out and about and I can tell you that I felt like crap-o-la after those meals.  I’m thinking that eliminating the fast food all together is a great idea!! Save money and skip the stomach cramps.  Sounds good to me!
  • Work on Turbo Fire:  I started Turbo Fire right after I quit 30DS.  TF is intense and I started seeing some results right away. Things tighten up pretty quickly and I love the workouts.  That said, I’ve been slacking these first few days of February.  I’m just going to put that out there.  Ugh!  My goal for February is to do the workouts as scheduled.  I’m beginning again half way though week 2 (where I left off) tomorrow.
  • Work through PUSH:  I think that the PUSH program is a great accompaniment to the TF workouts.  Chalene Johnson created both and I really like the mind/body connection between the two.  If your head isn’t on straight, you really got nothin’.  I’m going to do the free program on her website.  I do have the book but I feel like the website is great because there are videos and additional guidance.  I’m on day 3 today and will adhere to the daily schedule.

So there they are.  I’m off to get things started (re-started?).

What are your goals for February?